hi ho, hi ho, its off to work i go

i hate it here. not that the money isn't good, not that its strenuious (sp?) backbreaking labour, not that i'm at all in the worst work environment that i at all could ever be in. no... everyone is nice.. sure i have to dress "officy" but apart from that.. but the thing is... every minute i'm here, i can feel my precious mind being drained of all its power. why why WHY won't they give me something to do? i just sit here all day. should i be posting new blogs at work? think about it.. no. i shouldn't, i shouldn't have time to i should be kept busy. even at my dads office, where i was filing, all day in and out, at least there, with all that tedium, at least there i felt useful. here i am quite literally being paid to do nothing. oh the supplies haven't come in yet for my job , well they said that last month, maybe i should be fired, if i'm not needed i mean you are wasting precious money. i'm useless. whatever, at least i get to finish my book, i bought "a heartbreaking work of staggering genius" by dave eggers its amazing. its sooo sooo soooooooo good. its great. i want to marry him and bear his children. and leave the ministry of health. anyway. i've been to every book store between here and there looking for some book called gravitys rainbow. the guy at book city a) suggested it when i bought blink,(well he more than suggested it he very encouragingly suggested it for like ten minutes, i wouldn't just buy it if someone was like "oh i liked it") but then b) did not have a copy in the store. which i found very annoying. so i've just given up. i don't care. i think they ordered me a copy, so we'll see, maybe he just suggested it so that he could order me a copy...knowing all along that they didn't have one...no that doesn't make sense. well in the mean time i'll read blink, which is good, i read the first chapter of it at babysitting and was immedeatly enthralled. oh god its only 11 13, i have to go slit my wrists now